pictures from our last morning in Haiti


Tess & I left Haiti last Thursday morning and had a very uneventful day traveling home to Minnesota. I've done this back-and-forth from Haiti to MN many times, and the way it affects me has changed a lot since my first trip 10 years ago. The main difference now is that the reality of the poverty and suffering that exists in Haiti (and all over the world) isn't ever that far from my mind. Neither is the reality of my life in the U.S., even after being gone for several months. It still takes a few days to get used to each place, but it's not the shock it used to be.
One of the biggest things that always strikes me when I come back to the U.S. from Haiti is how "enclosed" life is here. Most homes in Haiti are really open. For better or worse, the sounds and smells filter into every aspect of your life. When this includes roosters crowing at 5 AM, it's not so nice. But mostly I love this aspect of living in Haiti. Here in the U.S. we're obsessed with keeping our living/working/recreation/etc spaces as clean/climate-controlled/noise-controlled as possible. Which means that, more often than not, we keep the doors and windows closed, turn on the AC (at least in the summer), roll up car windows, and so on. But in the process we close out life...we miss out on the sounds, smells, the warm summer air. I don't get it---here in MN we spend 8 months of the year freezing, then when it's finally warm enough to take off the 3 layers of clothing you need in the winter, you find that you actually still need them if you're planning to go anywhere inside during the summer. Bizarre.
I miss living with the Livesays. I miss Tara & Troy and the fun times we had hanging out, watching LOST & The Office, living life together. I miss working in the clinic with Paige and listening to her perfect Kreyol. I miss Isaac's constant questions. I miss Hope's singing, Noah's silliness, Annie's laugh. I miss Phoebe saying "jen jen" every time she sees me. I miss Lydia's huge smiles. Moving from Port to La Digue to live with them last January was a bigger blessing than I ever could have imagined.
In regards to the medical stuff, I already miss the work I was doing. I hate knowing that there's kids in the village and from the mountains that aren't getting the medical care they need & deserve. I've been listening to this song by Sara Groves called When The Saints....it talks about people who are doing kingdom work all over the world. It's really moving. Makes me miss Haiti all the more. Here's the lyrics:
Lord I have a heavy burden of all I've seen and know
It's more than I can handle
But your word is burning like a fire shut up in my bones
and I cannot let it go
And when I'm weary and overwrought
with so many battles left unfought
I think of Paul and Silas in the prison yard
I hear their song of freedom rising to the stars
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
Lord it's all that I can't carry and cannot leave behind
but your word has compelled me
when I think of all who've gone before me and lived the faithful life
And when I'm weary and overwrought
with so many battles left unfought
I think of Paul and Silas in the prison yard
I hear their song of freedom rising to the stars
I see the shepherd Moses in the Pharohs court
I hear his call of freedom for the people of the Lord
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them
I see the long quiet walk along the Underground Railroad
I see the slave awakening to the value of her soul
I see the young missionary and the end of the spear
I see his family returning with no trace of fear
I see the long hard shadows of Calcutta nights
I see the sisters standing by the dying man's side
I see the young girl huddled on the brothel floor
I see the man with a passion come and kicking down the door
I see the man of sorrows and his long troubled road
I see the world on his shoulders and my easy load
In the totally mundane category, I think the amount of mail we get here is ridiculous (I spent yesterday going through 5 months worth of mail, 95% of which went straight into the recycling bin) and I hate that it's still cold. The news people are talking about the wind chills for tonight. Ridiculous. It's almost June! But I've been shivering since I got back. I've always said that I'd rather be too hot than too cold...which means that living in MN makes absolutely NO sense. Except that I have amazing friends and family here. So I put up with it.
It really is good to be back though. There's the little things---I like having a car and how easy it is to get around. I like that I just loaded 3 pictures onto this post in less than 30 seconds. I love SuperTarget. I love being able to go for walks outside without being stared at. And there's big things that are nice about being back too--like reconnecting with friends & family. Summer is MN is my absolute favorite time of the year...and I've got tons of fun stuff coming up this summer. Including an NDY concert to benefit Providence Ministries at O'Gara's bar in St. Paul on June 6th. If you live in the Twin Cities, consider coming out to O'Gara's that night. It's going to be tons of fun!!
I have a few more stories to share over the next few weeks, and I'll be posting some of the pictures that Marcia took of the clinic. I'll also be linking to Jamie and Aaron Ivey's blogs over the coming week as they document the work being done by Licia and Lori in Cazale and the needs of this amazing ministry. Please consider doing whatever you can to help them out with the Real Hope for Haiti Campaign.
So what's next for me? Last summer, after graduating from residency and before I left for Haiti, I worked as a hospitalist and in the ER at our local children's hospital. I'll be picking up some hospitalist shifts over the next 5 weeks. Then in July I'm starting a three year pediatric emergency medicine fellowship. Sometimes it feels like I'm a glutton for punishment for starting yet another training program (as if residency wasn't enough), but I'm actually looking forward to it. Once I'm finished and pass my boards, I'll be fully certified as a pediatric emergency medicine physician (in addition to being certified in general pediatrics). In theory, this will give me a more flexible work schedule than just about any other medical field. Meaning (hopefully) that I'll be able to get back to traveling and working in the developing world again. Besides the potential scheduling benefits, I also love working in the ER setting, and I'm looking forward to just being able to do that (in contrast to residency, when we rotated through all of the pediatric specialties).
Thanks to everyone who's followed along over the past 9 months and for supporting and encouraging me!